el diablo is trying to kill me...i'm sure of it

so my week thus far has been ridiculous...and it is only wed. you know my crazy day i had on monday with the children if the corn. well i survive those little darlings only to have to fight for my life on tuesday. for those of you who don't know what my normal day consists of...in the morning (10-2:30) i work in the kitchen at calvary, taking out trash, mopping, dishes, stocking ect. and in the afternoons (2:30-6) i work in the extended care, taking care of the children. well, yesterday morning i was picking up some trashbags, not full of trash trashbags, just empty trashbags to put the cans. i twisted just right that i threw out my back/pinched a nerve/died a little on the inside. it started as just uncomfortable and as the day drug on moved to unbarebly(i have no idea how to spell that) painful. so i spend my entire in pain and walking around like i am pregnant. after class i decide to go over to aaron's house to put some of josh's music on my ipod. i successfully gain several new albums and i had an amazing time visiting. on the drive home i had absolutly no problems with my truck. then, in my driveway, i am pulling in to park and my brake pedal won't go down. so i am now headed toward disaster (and when your brakes don't work 10 mph seems like 3765 mph) and i have to quickly make the choice to a) swerve to the right and hit both of my parents cars, b) swerve to the left and run into the house or c) keep going strait and plow into johnathon's (my brother) car. and i drive a really big truck. so in a moment of panic i throw the truck into park and slide to a stop just short of johnathon's car. i run into my house and tell my mother "i am not going to drive my truck tomorrow, you have no idea what it just tried to do to me." and my mother, in her infinate wisdom, says "it might have been a fluke. you could maybe drive it tomorrow" ..... -_- .....no. so we decide that the truck should be seen to. after some crazy car hoping and droping off here and taking there, we all get to where we need to be today. but i am still in extreme pain. so i go through my entire in pain and concered about my truck....side note... i love my father, but sometimes he says ridiculous things...he is taking my truck to the mechanic and calls me to tell me that the brakes are giving him problems. hmmm. thank you dad...back to the story...so i am not in the best mood today. i snap at my kids and walk around like i am pregnant and just complain alot. i am driving home tonight and i am throwing myself a mini pity party over all of my tragedies. just stewing over the problems with my truck, my back hurting me so much, the fact that i am not doing as well in school right now as i like to, the fact that i am broker than i have ever been in my life and i have no idea when i will recover, some personal things i am going through, and that i can't remember the last time i wasn't tired. i am wondering when all of this is going to change and if it is going to change and just getting really down on myself. i look up ahead of me, and in the sky, i kid you not i see a shooting star. and it completley distracts me from my bad mood. and my mind is quiet. i hear what song is playing on my ipod and it is saying stuff about not giving up and keeping your head above the water and just keeping on (swim by jack's mannequin). it was only about 10 seconds of a distraction, but it was enough. it got me thinking about God and how He watches out for me. there is nothing magical about a shooting, but it is really cool looking, and the stars always make me think about God's amazing creation and His power. and jack's mannequin is not a 'christian' group, but those words were what i really needed to hear at that moment. sometimes i can get so wrapped up in my thoughts i block out everything else, including the God. but He is gracious and loving enough to use my ADD to distract me with a shiny star to be able to tell me to just keep going. i know this was another long post but i really wanted to share that encouragement with y'all. i hope my crazy post today will not only make you laugh but make you think about the grace, love and joy that comes from our fabulous Father.
Isaiah 40: 25-27
" 'To whom will you compare me? Who is my equal?' asks the Holy One. Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of His great power and incomparable strength, not a single one is missing. O Jacob, how can you say the Lord does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights?"
read the whole chapter...it is my favorite :)
amybeth